Dec 10, 2010

life is sometimes just not fair ...


yes, please observe Mr. Donal Duck here.... He is as angry as I am right now....
you know what.... after I finished my CIMP,I was so happy and pumped up that I am able and eligible to apply for NZ... but guess what happened? I don't think I am able to go... you know why..? because of some setbacks... in which i really regret... i deserved to go...! i really do.. but just because of some past setbacks, i cnt... i cnt even apply for the freakin PTPTN .... nor for the scholarship coz Im not that smart.. so, then...??? where am i supposed to go..? tell me... where???

i have been searching and searching but when i get somewhere..ouh sorry dear, the cost is too high.. or we don't have enough money... yes, i do admit that i have to think of the fees as well but then again... i can't even go for a loan or PTPTN... because of why????? because someone in my family did not settle their PTPTN yet.... and it will affect me... now THAT sucks being the youngest huh..? having to bear the consequences for what your older siblings did....??

and now i know why you have been suggesting me local universities... i really appreciate it.. but why cnt i go..? u messed up doesn't mean I will.... why do i have to miss out on all these...? why...? just tell me why..? you think it's fair that you get the chance and i dont..?

what ever it is..i am not letting my parents down... they went a long way to make sure i get these things.... and i am doing it for them....

i just don't know why i have so many unexpressed anger in me... pardon me for that...

~SHA~

1 comment:

naddhy92 said...

saba ye...huhu...:)